2 years...

How has it been two years? Two years without your laughter, your corny jokes, your deep wisdom, your encouraging words...two years without your meal time prayers, your hugs, your special knock on the door, your dreams of the future...two years without you. How can it be true? We have gone through the seasons, through birthdays, through holidays, through ups and downs...all without you. You are experiencing things beyond our imaginations, and we are experiencing life in a new form, a new way. Heart hurts, belly laughs, new memories made...all without you. I know that the pain will lessen...it will become easier... At least that's what I'm supposed to believe. The truth is that if I let myself think too much about how you left us, my heart will not be at rest, peace will flee.

When will I have peace? When will life be okay without you here to share in it with us? When will I trust the goodness of God again with my whole heart?

You are missed. You have left behind a legacy - a heritage - rich in love for God, love for family, and love for others. Thank you for living a life full of God's love for others and a love for learning and knowing more. Your legacy lives on through your children, your grandchildren, your friends...so many lives hold a reflection of you.

I hope that, even in your last days, people were touched by you and your faith. I hope that I can take what I learned from you and your way of living and pass some of that joy and goodness on to others.

You are always in my heart, often on my mind...you are loved and missed.





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